impatient

Impatient — My brain, always several steps ahead or so it likes to think. It wants to speed up, fast-forward to the good part of the movie past the scary bits past the pain, the grief, the hurt Past the learning as a verb Straight to the lessons directly to the “resolution,” to knowing how it all works out. Except the body knows best. It knows that it can only metabolize at whatever rate it metabolizes. Reading about exercise isn’t the same as working out My body knows that learning and growth and healing happen on a timeframe all their own They don’t care that Spotify has a feature to skip ahead to the next track Recovery doesn’t give a shit that you can pay $13.99 a month to get YouTube without the ads It turns out my life is not something that’s being optimized by some product manager looking at metrics. It turns out my Being is following the rhythms of Life.