it would be enough

Where do I feel it in my body
A question that it took until
almost-middle-age
to ask myself.

And now I can’t stop asking
and noticing
sometimes words escape me
so I am learning to feel it
in my bones

There it is –
in my quads
or in my sternum

I notice my compulsion to want to label it;
is this feeling good
or bad?

I want to sort it,
to fit it into
a reference point
in the hopes
that attaching a label
will help me make meaning
will help me understand myself.

What if I could remove the judgment?
What if I could simply feel

What if I could notice
the sensation in my body?

Dayenu