it would be enough

Where do I feel it in my body

A question that it took until

almost-middle-age

to ask myself.

And now I can’t stop asking

and noticing

sometimes words escape me

so I am learning to feel it

in my bones

There it is – in my quads

or in my sternum

I notice my compulsion to want to label it –

is this feeling good

or bad?

I want to sort it, to fit it into

a reference point

in the hopes that attaching a label

will help me make meaning

will help me understand myself.

What if I could remove the judgment?

What if I could simply feel?

What if I could notice the sensation

in my body?

Dayenu